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Recently I have had beliefs that my clothes were a lie and that I was actually naked in front of everyone. Everyone's facial expressions matched up yet did not all the same. I was really freaking out until I met up with a friend. They tried to reassure me but I still felt my clothes were a lie despite being able to see my clothes.

Have any of you experienced delusions of an embarrassing nature? I'm just curious and don't want feel alone in this matter ...

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You are not alone.

I know I have experienced embarrassing delusions before.  I was off of meds at the time, although when I was put on some they didn't help.  I don't like to get into the embarrassing delusions because they bring back a lot of bad memories, but I know I had them.  Looking back I can't believe some of the stuff I did and stuff I thought.  So no, you aren't alone.

 

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Most recently, there have been more than a handful, but the weirdest--and therefore probably most embarassing--was me being in an ER and being convinced based on what people were saying around me that it was a fake ER--as in that it wasn't actually a hospital.  I'd get into the "reasoning" but the reasoning doesn't make any sense either, predictably. 

There were a bunch more from the past two weeks, but that's probably the easiest example. 

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Not alone at all.

I have done some things. I will give just one example. This one is a toughy. I was going through a stage where I thought mirrors could scry the future, and I had the magical properties to do so. I would spend hours looking at turned off tv's and mirrors and even my phone screen and talk into the future hoping to catch a glimpse of the future. I would see figures in the reflections and would think they were the beings that would show me these glimples. Now my daughter was around 7 I think, she caught me looking at a doorknob and waving at the doorknob. She immediately asked what I was doing. I told her about the lady in the doorknob and explained she was going to show me the future.....

Scared, my daughter did not reply but went back into her room. Years later my daughter brought it back up, she is 11 now. It was very hard to explain to her what was going on, and I was almost in tears. I am very embarrassed about that scenario and super ashamed. 

I guess I did not need to give off so much detail, I hope you do not feel like your experience was minimized. Trust me, every single symptom of a MI is important. Every delusion can affect a person to great extremes.

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Oh gosh, pretty much all of my delusions are embarrassing. Even at psychiatrist appointments I only ever say I've had delusions, I never go into detail. 

Probably one of the most embarrassing ones was when I was like 14-17 years old and I believed there were two little monsters that followed me around, specifically waiting in the bathroom (didn't matter where I was, I could be in a public restroom and they'd still be there) and they would threaten me and if I didn't act exactly how they wanted me to, they'd kill me. The most embarrassing part was that whenever I took a shower I believed they would kill me if I stopped singing. Seems very crazy now, but while I'm starting to get less stable again I can feel all these old and (for the most part) forgotten delusions lurking in the back of my mind. 

Along with that one, I also believed that there were tiny, pinpoint sized cameras in the ceiling corners everywhere. I was never clear on who put them there, though. 

Another one that I still have, and even though I recognize it's fake, I can't stop myself from believing it, is that other people can hear my thoughts. It's usually when I'm walking past crowds of people. Especially if I'm thinking about something that I wouldn't want anyone to know. So I scream as loudly as I can in my head (not out loud) so that it covers up my thoughts. Would be embarrassing to explain to someone.

I also believed that I was a psychic witch for a long time, like that I legit could do magic. Yikes. 

And for a time I believed I could control the weather and air and such. 

I've also believed that I could talk to animals in my mind. 

Also that photos of people were kind of like extensions of the person themselves and that they could see everything I was doing through the photo. 

All sorts of wacky things. Feels really weird to write them all down here, I never really made a list or thought about them all together before. 

 

Edit: also remembered, I used to think that my stuffed animals were alive and that if I didn't keep them comfortable and apologize for knocking them over or suck that they would kill me.

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About photos, I thought if I pictured a picture in my head (like as  memory), that that picture would re-create itself in the scene it had been in. So if I pictured a baby in the park, the baby at the park was re-created in the park, but because I wasn't in the picture, the baby was there alone.

Also like mentioned above, thought I could talk to animals also.

Thought that if I put my bills (ie credit card, electric, etc) under a certain light, that someone would get the image under their light and would pay the bills.  Of course I got the fees for being overdue, but fortunately at least the credit company took them off the credit card balance.

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I sometimes believe I can do magic. The interesting part is that my magical workings often work. Not sure if it's still a delusion or if these are wildly improbable coincidences. I mean some types of workings don't work but a lot of them seem to. I do sometimes find this embarrassing, and when I do confide in someone they tend to judge me negatively.

 

 

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i don't know if most of my delusions are embarrassing in themselves or if it's the consequences of them that embarrasses me.

the only embarrassing one i can think of was when i thought they were trying to plot against me by putting me on water restriction. but then i largely think, at least the overnight staff, is plotting against me.

i've also accused inanimate objects of plotting against me and taken action to remove things from my home or destroy them so as to contain it. that's embarrassing when you are explaining why you're burning a chair in your backyard.

but the most embarrassing things happen when people see scars i have from trying to dig wires or implants out of myself. i'm no trained surgeon, so they look pretty jagged and just generally fucked up. so, like, it's obviously not from some legit procedure i had, but some make people assume i had a horrific accident. until my hair grew back, i had one that made people think i'd sustained a head injury and explaining that, no, after smashing my phone to bits when the voices prompted me that that was part of the transmission system, i tried to dig the implant out and got thwarted in medias res. 

i would call mine more informational/terrifying than embarrassing overall.

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