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Should I tell my therapist? (TRIGGER WARNING)

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I was recently discharged from an inpatient facility about a month ago, and then discharged from a partial hospitalization program a few weeks ago, due to an overdose on pills. I now see my psychologist once a week, but it really doesn't seem enough. I've just been getting worse and worse lately. So recently I've started carving the initials of all of those who have hurt me or left me into my left bicep. I really don't want to tell my therapist, because he'll make a big deal and make me tell my mother, but I know I really should, because I'm struggling so bad right now. Does anyone have any advice on what I should do? (I'm 16 by the way).

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Indeed, it would be a good idea to tell your therapist.

He can't help you as well if he doesn't know what's going on.

Out of curiosity, what would make you want to carry around forever on your skin a reminder of all those who have hurt you? Haven't they already harmed you enough?

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I agree with @Wooster- it is best to bring this up with your therapist, even if it means your parents finding out. The therapist's entire job is figuring out how to make things better for you, not worse. Sometimes you just have to trust the professionals, I guess. :)

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