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I am currently taking antidepressants and I am worried because of the testimonies of people here in this link below.  Scroll down and you will find them.  Some people are fine even after taking them for many years.  But some have their lives destroyed.  In particular, I am worried about all my motivation and everything about me being wiped out from these medications.

https://prof77.wordpress.com/2012/10/26/testimonies-of-people-destroyed-by-antidepressants/

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That's  just someone's blog anyone can say anything. Many people stop their meds only to find they really do have mental illness and needed the pills. They do not like this and blame the pills. 

 

 

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I find that when people write stuff on-line about medications, you rarely see the good testimonies.

Also, what you read won't necessarily happen to you.  The only way to find out is to try the med/s to see for yourself how they work (after the 4-8 weeks of letting it get into your system).

I think you shouldn't be  overly reading stories from the internet.  IMO they can tend to worry people when there is actually nothing to worry about in your particular case.

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I had the typical concerns over MI drugs changing me into some zombie or just mutating my personality into someone else.  The truth is that I was dealing with major depression an anxiety.   The Anxiety got bad enough that I couldn't drive a car.  I had periods where I thought my heart was signaling a heart attack.   Depression wise I wasn't ready to kill my self but if a bus happened to hit me I wouldn't care.  Far from being made to feel suicidal depression its seemed to make me fell less drepressed so I have mostly typical days.  I am a little less enthused by driving but I can do it and I would rate that treatment as functional.  People react differently to MI drugs.  Some lucky few have a great doctor and luck to find something that works fine without side effects.  Others have to experiment with dose and type for a while.

The people who blog about trying one drug should have been told its not that simple and that they have to give lots of feedback to the doctor. 

Some bastard talked about the rates of Suicide amount troops returning from war.  How many of the seek treatment?  I'm guessing very few because its not "Macho" and the VA is a disaster area in as far as getting people who have put it all on the line. 

If I want to know if a drug is effective or dangerous I look at peer reviewed studies.  *Note more then one.  And I always try to understand what they say and how many other studys conclude the same thing.  

Blogs are frightening bull shit.  The cite no sources and they don't have any technical expertise in making the claims they dol 

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People who do well on meds and have no problems are not motivated to post about it on the Internet. Those who don't have good experiences with meds tend to be very motivated to post and be vocal. The Internet then has info about mental illness and meds that is very one sided. Worst case outcomes are over emphasised on the Internet. It is not a good place to receive balanced and fair information on meds. 

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3 hours ago, melissaw72 said:

I find that when people write stuff on-line about medications, you rarely see the good testimonies.

This. Most people only ever feel motivated to write about stuff when they're angry. 

There's absolute zero point in reading about other people's experience because you simply won't have the same experience. Try not to worry about it. 

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I have been on and off antidepressants since I was 12, and I can tell you there is nothing horrible about it. Worst case scenario is that you get intolerable side effects and you ask your doctor to change your med. Nothing is permanent no matter what those it might say on those blogs. You stop the med then any issues you were having will resolve. However, if you stop a med that is working for you, you are at a big risk for a return of symptoms (depression).

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11 hours ago, notloki said:

People who do well on meds and have no problems are not motivated to post about it on the Internet. Those who don't have good experiences with meds tend to be very motivated to post and be vocal. The Internet then has info about mental illness and meds that is very one sided. Worst case outcomes are over emphasised on the Internet. It is not a good place to receive balanced and fair information on meds. 

The Internet can be a good source of information with careful selection of web pages.

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After trying to get off Lexapro three times and each time experiencing a return of depression (or discontinuation syndrome?), I have been worried about how these SSRIs have been altering my brain chemistry.

I know that my Major Depressive Disorder (and probable double depression) is organic and genetic, not just situational, and for that reason I was willing to get on the meds in the first place. I had tried every conceivable holistic/alternative option I could think of and nothing was working... And my irritability/sensitivity and sadness had seeped over into every area of my life, causing me to not be able to function: get a job, show up to places on times, leave the house... Daily back and jaw pain, IBS, insomnia, emotion-based chest pain, feeling of overwhelm, hopelessness, worthlessness, guilt, frequent thoughts of death and dying. I was damaging my relationships, the most painful of which was my relationship with my two young children. So I went on Prozac... And so started my journey with psychotropic meds.

I am still recovering from my latest attempt to get off Lexapro. I lasted 3 weeks with the return of my depression this time before starting to titrate back up again. (I say this because this may be my Depression talking.) In my searches on "discontinuation syndrome" and trying to see how long it might take for the symptom of depression to resolve, I came across such answers as "up to 6 months for brain chemistry to return to the pre-medicated state." What? And then these people go on to say how they wish they'd never gone on the SSRI (or other psychotropic med) in the first place because now they can never get off. And I'm like, I don't even think I'd still be alive if I wasn't on these meds! I may never be able to come off them. And I need to be ok with that and not give credence to my guilt that I should somehow be able to white knuckle it through my life without medications. As if the meds are somehow destroying me. Ugh! Of all the things to feel guilty about, why do I need to take on feeling guilty that I am reliant on meds?

There have been some meds that have made it more difficult for me to think, as you said was your concern.  I got off of those ones and switched to ones where I felt better, able to think, and much more motivated than I was pre-medication. I think you just need to monitor yourself and realize if the meds side effects are tolerable/intolerable. If you are dulled or sedated by a med, hopefully you have a friend or a therapist who could give you some gauge as to whether this perception is accurate. My mom told me that Prozac had turned me into a zombie. Lexapro has not sedated me at all. Keep searching and keep trying them out until you find a med that works.

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