HAVE BIPOLAR DISORDER TYPE II, AND ALSO I HAVE SOCIAL PHOBIA. I HAVE HISTORY OF DRUG ABUSE, AND I HAD BEEN ADDICTED TO XANAX FOR 2 YEARS. THEN, BY FOLLOWING ASHTON MANUAL, I FINALLY MANAGED TO DROP OFF THESE MEDS GRADUALLY. AND I HAVE BEEN CLEAN FOR 18 MONTHS NOW. BUT MY LIFE GRADUALLY BECOMES IMPOSSIBLE AND 1 WEEK AGO I TOOK XANAX( AGAIN) AND IT HELPED ME TO DO DAILY TASKS WITHOUT ANXIETY ISSUES. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. I HAVE THE FEELING THAT WITHOUT BENZOS MY LIFE IS NOT AS IT SHOULD BE WITHOUT XANAX I AM LOCKED IN MY HOUSE, BARELY ABLE TO COMMUNICATE WITH STRANGERS, EVEN WHEN NEEDED.
My christmas was okay.
I survived it.
I do well when the food is rolling in and the drinks are flowing. Saves me from having to make idle chit-chat.
Went to one family gathering and I ended up getting the shakes (I have essential tremor of the head and neck) and nerves.
My seat was in the corner in front of family I rarely see.
I ended up swallowing 2 ativan, and some pepto-bizmal and swallowed my pride and survived.
we were being forced to socialize and it was painful.
Anyone want to share?
Hello everyone, thought I would do what everyone else has done and introduce myself a little.
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I am George, I live in Dagenham with my soulmate. I suffer from social anxiety disorder, and depression. I spend everyday indoors, but I do try to go outside at least once during the day. I used to be a member of the Mental Health Forum but felt unwelcome after a couple of years, then I joined RethinkTalk which was great until it closed down and ever since I have been trying to find somewhere else to go...Then a few days ago I found this place!
It seemed good to me, and I put a lot of effort into getting here..Considering I had to register over ten times, and create a yahoo account. So obviously I am glad I finally have an account, and can check the place out. I used to be on Citalopram for a short period of time, but then stopped taking them and decided to improve myself, by myself. Last couple of years have dedicated my time into doing just that-sorting my head out!
I have not self harmed since a year ago, I no longer starve myself or force myself to throw up, I even ate some things in front of people (phobia of eating in front of people), have gained confidence in myself, haven't tried to kill myself since 2010 and I am generally doing a lot better in life. Although I still have a LOT to work on, I am getting there slowly.
Anyway yeah that's me, and my shitty intro
I'm Tim, a 29 year old from Australia and I really like the looks of this place, the discussions here just look more real than I'm used to seeing in other mental illness groups and forums. My current diagnoses are Schizophrenia with Mood Component and Melancholic Depression though me and the pdoc seem to be approaching the illness as schizo-affective or more just a killer combo of schizophrenia and bipolar(which was a past diagnosis). I'm a mess, I make digital art every now and then and spend most of my time in my apartment doing something with a computer. I recently deteriorated after losing a volunteer role at a library, my time with a support org expiring and a sister's wedding to overwhelm me, I am making steps to get a life of sorts together again: found a place I might volunteer at, hooked up with another support organisation, reengaged with my pdoc and starting up with a personal trainer. I don't know how I'll end up but actually finding a forum that seems to fit can only help. I look forward to getting to know you all.
Hi all, I'm new and just made a post in the bipolar forums but figured I should introduce myself here as well.
I am 28, a mom of 2, and live on the East Coast. I was first diagnosed with major depression at the age of 13, and was later diagnosed with MULTIPLE mental illnesses at the age of 24 (Bipolar I, GAD, EDNOS, Schizoaffective Disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, complex PTSD, and OCD). At the age of 25 I was also "diagnosed" as an alcoholic. I am extremely self destructive whether I'm depressed or manic and it has been a very rough few years.
I've been searching for a mental health support forum for quite some time so I am hoping I can become comfortable here, make friends, and support some others who are struggling along side me.