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Hello friend. I'm Grey Matter, I guess I'll start with I've been lurking this forum board for almost a year now. I have trouble interacting with people online sometimes. I have skitzoaffective disorder bipolar type so when that fleeting moment comes that I get manic, I tend to make an arse of myself. I also have anxiety so that's fun. But this seemed like a decent forum people here seem pretty OK so after isolating myself and living under a rock I decided to give it another try. Hope it goes OK, so here's to rolling with the punches. Heh.

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Welcome aboard, Grey Matter! I'm also glad you decided to join. I'm looking forward to seeing you post on the boards.

Welcome aboard, Grey Matter! I'm also glad you decided to join. I'm looking forward to seeing you post on the boards.

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