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Heyyy... I was diagnosed with schizo-affective disorder. I hear voices, have obsessive/negative thoughts (possibly intrusive), have thought broadcasting, and mood swings. As of now I am on abilify-15mg, rexulti-4mg, and lexapro-20mg. I'm seeing a pdoc as well as a therapist. Though, it's really hard to keep my appointments with my therapist due to my social phobia. I keep thinking people can hear my thoughts and think of me as 'disgusting.' I even sometimes think my family & friends hear me. It's getting so hard to deal with... I think about suicide a lot... but I know deep down that it's not the only option and it is very final. There is help for me!!! 

Anyone else going through this crappy stuff??? What medications are you on? How do you deal? What has helped you - past and present? How long have you dealt with this? 

Feel free to add any additional information about what you are going through... I am also here to help anyone going through this because I know how hard it can get... believe me. Sometimes I am better at offering advice rather than taking my own. However, please seek help from a professional if you feel you are at your wits end. :) 

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5 hours ago, TigerEyes91 said:

Though, it's really hard to keep my appointments with my therapist due to my social phobia.

This would be a good thing to work on in therapy (the social phobia) and possibly work with your pdoc on a med to help the social anxiety until you can cope better with it.  The med could be temporary ... just taken until you learn some skills to help you through it.

I agree with CNO.  I think if you are having these thoughts and beliefs, (below quote), your meds might need a tweak or change:

5 hours ago, TigerEyes91 said:

I keep thinking people can hear my thoughts and think of me as 'disgusting.' I even sometimes think my family & friends hear me. It's getting so hard to deal with... I think about suicide a lot...

  Meds should be helping to get these things under control and to either go away or be manageable.

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28 minutes ago, TigerEyes91 said:

Thanks so much guys!!! I'm seeing my therapist tomorrow and I'm gonna force myself to go. :)  

Good work! I'm glad you are going to your tdoc tomorrow! That will help I think. 

I have SZA too. I take Abilify and Seroquel XR and Lamictal and klonopin (for the anxiety). I deal with lots of bad and negative thoughts and death messages and people monitoring/watching me...these haunt me daily. I try to be positive though. I am told I get delusional and paranoid and have hallucinations. I'm not sure I believe those words about me really. I honestly don't know what to think anymore. It all seems so real and scary.

I've had this disorder for a long time. Like it began in my teen years but I wasn't diagnosed until I was in my twenties. I mostly lay low and avoid stress and can't work or school or anything like that. I am on SSDI. 

What helps me is a positive outlook and distractions that take my mind off of the thoughts. It is hard to do but therapy has helped me cope better. I have been hospital free for a year now! So I know I'm making progress at least. 

Welcome to CB! Nice to meet you. 

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I went through all of that when i had an episode lasting ten months. scary shit, funny shit, all kinds of shit. If your on meds and still having hallucinations you might need to up your meds or change them. I take 8 mg of trilafon(perphenzanine) and I have no psychosis. Unfortunately I am not having any luck with the mood disorder. cycling about a month on mania and weekly depression. It's getting old. Im tired of fucking shit up all the time and really have no reason why I do it. I can't explain myself for my actions. wierd

I do not get suicidal thoughts. I can now kind of see where the dark place can take you and have more understanding where your thoughts can take you. I am bipolar type so my depression is agitation and sleeping for days at a time. what a life!! 

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Hi there, and welcome to crazyboards! Please stop by our introductions thread so we can get to know you: http://www.crazyboards.org/forums/index.php?/forum/61-introductions-who-the-hell-are-you/

Personally, I've been diagnosed as having major depression, generalized anxiety disorder, ADD, and "some form of psychosis" (aka auditory hallucinations). I'm on 20mg Abilify for the psychosis and to help boost the 375mg of Effexor. I also take 30mg of Adderall twice/day for ADD and 2mg of Klonopin thrice/day for the anxiety. 

I'm also seeing a psychologist for therapy every two weeks. 

Together, all these treatments help keep me sane. (ish)

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Hey then, I have sza depressive form and anxiety after a slight switch in diagnosis. I take divalproex,wellbutrin,lorazepam for anxiety and invega injection form. I've been dealing with this stuff since I was 12, I'm 30 now. I'm not saying this is everyone but it took a long time before my treatment team got some meds that'd work, again YMMV. But once they work life just becomes bareable again I sometimes even have good days,rare but I honestly didn't think I'd ever have one again. What I'm saying is don't give up and be patient and honest with your team, they're there to help you.

And just from experience I know this sounds obvious but always try your hardest to be on time with taking meds do whatever you got to do to take them as prescribed and regularly, this was a hard one for me because I've always had trouble with motivation. Don't let it happen to you it's an extra slog sometimes through hell you don't have to go through. I don't know hope that helps.

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9 hours ago, Grey Matter said:

Hey then, I have sza depressive form and anxiety after a slight switch in diagnosis. I take divalproex,wellbutrin,lorazepam for anxiety and invega injection form. I've been dealing with this stuff since I was 12, I'm 30 now. I'm not saying this is everyone but it took a long time before my treatment team got some meds that'd work, again YMMV. But once they work life just becomes bareable again I sometimes even have good days,rare but I honestly didn't think I'd ever have one again. What I'm saying is don't give up and be patient and honest with your team, they're there to help you.

It took a long time to finally find meds that worked for me too.  It sucks taking meds, but I agree that once the right meds are in place, life becomes bareable again (to a point ... not necessarily all bearable, but much better than it was before the right meds came along). (YMMV).

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