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Hello to everyone on CB.

I found CB in what has been one of the most tumultuous of my 43 years on this earth. I have a long history fighting the black dog and all the darkness that he/she carries with them.  I continue to struggle with self harm and feel the glaring stigma that seems to so easily come when people see a 43 year old man and his scars.  As a part the borderline traits I have recently been diagnosed with (not quite BPD but close if that makes any sense) I fight the emotional upheaval that seems to be occupying more of my life of late.

In a concerted effort to move forward and fight the good fight I am beginning a DBT Program and working hard to find that path forward.

I have never had to fight so hard to stay alive but I can say I am still fighting. 

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1 minute ago, empty inside said:

it took me a while to finally cave and actually participate in all the mindfulness stuff, it sounds ridiculous but it really does help. 

I completely get that. Being 100% involved is going to be the biggest challenge for me. 

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I'm just getting going on DBT, so i'll be keeping you company.  mine's more for the bipolar and ptsd piece of things, but still emotional dysregulation and hyperreactivity.  just different cause to some degree.  I'll be crossing my fingers that yours goes well.  My individual portion has been great so far, so I'm just hoping the skills group holds up aas helpful also.

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