Lily Posted January 25, 2006 Share Posted January 25, 2006 Gah. Not in good shape here. No meds for awhile, feel the clouds descending. It's that empty empty feeling, that feeling that there's nothing under my feet, and if I don't occupy myself with something, anything, I'm going to fall in. I'm slipping already. Horrible Christmas, realized not even Dad wants to spend time with me. Travelled all that way to sit by myself. It's okay, I can tell myself I have other friends, that my own family not caring isn't a reflection on me, but I can't quite believe it right now. I can't organize anything, I can't get anything done. I go thru the motions,and thankfully no one says anything when I show up at work at 1pm in the afternoon. But every day the piles on my desk get higher, more and more opportunities pass by, nothing gets done. I hate knowing I have potential but not being able to do anything about it. I don't like wasting my life away. I have a nice therapist who doesn't do the meds thingy, and he's given me the number of one who does. But he's never in, and I'm so sick of the fucking merry-go-round of docs here who ask no questions, explain nothing, and throw meds. I'm scared to try meds again. I'm sad that things are slipping through my fingers. I'm sad to watch it all happen. And I'm scared out of my mind of being ignored. Will someone please say something? I'm at the end of my rope here. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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