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-- but I'm embarassed to ask my pdoc about it.  She did mention it (asked if I wanted to go in- I said no, I'd rather be at home) when I saw her last week, but not again this week.  My situation is pretty shitty right now... long and complicated story, but it looks as though my marriage is breaking down permanently and I'm just ... tired.  I want someone to tell me when to eat, when to take my pills, when to go to bed... etc.  Does that sound weak and pathetic?  It does to me.  I just don't know what to do.  (god, I really do sound pathetic.. sorry)

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No Skittle it is all understandable.

I suspect that your doc didn't say anything this week out of concern of being too pushy and going against your express wishes.  Don't be afraid to tell her what has been going on, how you feel, and that you were thinking of going to the hospital and ask what her opinion is.

Being exhausted can sure make things feel worse and harder to handle.  Do your best to take care of yourself. Keep your meal schedule, sleep what you need, and try to get out of the house and be with a good friend or relative.

Best,

A.M.

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I would just give her a call and level with her. "Look, I didn't think it was necessary last week or week before last, but the more I think about it, I really think it's probably what is best right now." Chances are she just didn't mention it again this week because she doesn't want to sound like she's pushing it down your throat, know what I mean?

Do what you need to do to take care of yourself. If you think you need to be there, you probably do. But in any case, it can't hurt to bring it up to your pdoc and see what she thinks. She may have an alternative for you if she thinks it's unnecessary but at least she will then know where you feel like you're at and be able to work with that.

Take care,

~Faith

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-- but I'm embarassed to ask my pdoc about it.  She did mention it (asked if I wanted to go in- I said no, I'd rather be at home) when I saw her last week, but not again this week.  My situation is pretty shitty right now... long and complicated story, but it looks as though my marriage is breaking down permanently and I'm just ... tired.  I want someone to tell me when to eat, when to take my pills, when to go to bed... etc.  Does that sound weak and pathetic?  It does to me.  I just don't know what to do.  (god, I really do sound pathetic.. sorry)

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It doesn't sound pathetic.

If your doctor has brought it up once already, then you are going through a hard time already and it sounds as though things are getting worse.

If you feel like you can't take care of yourself and don't have someone else to help you while you try to get back on track mentally, you need outside help and what may seem like simple things sometimes to other people can often be overwhelming and even impossible to manage.

Sometimes it takes me a few days from thinking i should change my sheets to actually doing it. Even if they are sitting right next to my bed.

Things can get hard and sometimes we need a structured environment and need to be told what to do so we can concentrate strictly on how to get better.

Your doctor is probably waiting for you to bring it up again.

It doesn't sound pathetic at all.

If you need to do it, it sounds like a plan. Which is smart.

~navy~

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I am a true believer in the hospital. I've been there 5 times. The only problem I have with them is that once I am stable, the other loons are far worse than me and they start needing me (they want to talk to someone who understands them), and when I'm that frail I can't do it. Then I have "boundary issues"./....

I'd say  be honest with the pdoc and tell her how you feel. Make a joint decision to hospitalize. Work out your feelings on your broken marriage wtih a counselor at the hospital. Actually, I loved the pastoral counseling I've received. I'm Wiccan, so not exactly into the rosary or anything, but they never tried to push religion on me. They helped me cope and really get to the root of my issues. I give the highest kudoes to them.

----------loon in mixed depression mode---------

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Skittle, i am so sorry to hear about your marriage breaking up.  are you still in the states?  i hope you have someone you can rely on.  maybe going to the hospital for a 'rest cure' (that's supposed to be a bit of a joke) may actually be helpful.

thinking of you & sending telepathic support signals, cuz honey i think you've gone through the ringer.

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Thanks all for the responses.  I spent the day in bed - no energy to do anything, and now it's 9:15pm and I'm on my way back there.  There isn't really anything I can do tomorrow (being Sunday), unless I just go and check myself into the clinic-- but I know from past experience that very little happens there over the weekend.  Monday if I'm still in this slump, which is looking likely, I'm going to call the pdoc and tell her I want to revisit the situation.  Thanks again everyone.

reddog -- I left the US last week -- things broke down over there.  His plan is to come here in the next two weeks or so (on what or whose money I don't know), but I really think this is over.  He's still managing to mess with my head from the other end of the world.  BUT I still love him... you know how it goes.  Thanks for asking.. take care of yourself too.

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Hi Skittle,

I'm so, so sorry to hear that you're not doing well, and I think the hospital is a wonderful option. I recently checked myself in voluntarily (I was there for four weeks, as I was taken off my meds), and it was the best thing I ever did. I spent the first few days there sobbing to the doctor and nurses that I felt like a loser and a failure for being in the hospital, but they kept telling me that it takes a winner and strong person to know when she needs help. They were right.

It sounds like you know what you need, and you'll do what's right for you. Hang in there until Monday (you're right about nothing happening in the hospital on the weekends)!

You're in my thoughts,

JB

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Oh Skittle, I echo everyone else here.  I'm sorry for you and your partner.  But first things first, try and take care of yourself as best you can right now and if that means getting support from a hospital etc... then do it.

Karen

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Skittle, you are a wonderful creative caring person, and I am very glad to have you on the board and as a friend.  Please take care of yourself.  You can do that either by carrying out all the self-care tasks you listed in your post, or you can do that by going somewhere that will be taken care of for you.  Both are responsible choices.  If you need to make the latter, take it.  Be safe.  Be well.  I'm sorry you're going through such a shitstorm right now.  If it's too much to deal with right now, don't try.  I hope you feel better soon. 

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