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I would like to know if any of you BPers out there have noticed a significant lack of motivation since before you felt the full effects of BP.

I just don't seem to care about anything anymore. Could it be med-related? I used to pay my bills right on time and felt anxious if I didn't. Now I don't, and I don't care.

I used to do my job VERY well. No longer. Don't care.

Occasionally, like now, I pause and realize how my life is out of control. Spiraling down. The thing is, it's not like I don't care because I am depressed. It's like I don't care because I have no motivation and I don't care that I have no motivation.

Thoughts?

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Do you have lots of other depressive symptoms along with lack of motivation? Maybe I AM depressed.

It seems like I have been on this med cocktail for quite a while and I had some motivation up until Sept. The hurricanes really upset me, and right about that time we were told that we were going to get laid off, but not for at least over a year, so I am not really worried about that. More jobs will be available by then because everyone else is bailing.

Maybe my meds are just crapping out?

My pdoc wanted me to add Lithium to the mix when I actually was super-depressed several months ago. I have been resisting because of all the things I have heard about it. I like the range of my emotions as far as reacting to things.

I like being happy when someting good happens, and being sad when something bad happens. I already can't be as sad as I want to be. I don't want that to get any worse.

BLAH!!!

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Sometimes that is the only symptom, but other times I feel the typical unrelenting sadness, but lack of motivation and sleeping too much is a big indicator for me that I am depressed.  Of course, I seem to have spent most of the past 5 months frequently in mixed state so I get more confused about what's doing what. ;)

Tommy

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About a month ago I went through a period of very low motivation (although part of me wanted to get up and do things, a greater part of me didn't), lethargy, somewhat fluey symptoms. I didn't think it was depression because I really didn't have negative thoughts. In fact, I was quite enjoying being lazy and reading all day. (Caveat - I was, at the time, adjusting to Effexor). My pdoc explained that, especially with bipolarity, negative, black moods don't necessarily accompany depression. Your body can be depressed without the other dark, negative moods usually associated with depression.

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First off:  Hi Jensky, welcome!

My meds do slow me down a bit and I don't have as wide a range of emotions as I would like. However, as I proved once again a couple weeks ago, that extra energy and swing of emotions, just keep swinging wider and wider, without the meds to keep them in check.  Sigh.

The house is a wreck, I've got bills to pay, and I'm wasting time on CrazyBoards.  ;)     Mostly I just need to get off my ass and "Git 'er done".

A.m.

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I too am unmotivated, but I think it's the depression. Over the last two weeks things have been improving and I'm finding myself wanting to do more. Meds can do it too. I know when I was overmedicated I was a walking zombie.

Hope it passes soon.

Ameth

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Lethargy. That rings a bell. My house has never looked worse. This used to cause me great stress, and it no longer does. My thought process on the way home from work: "Hey, I think the kids have one more day's worth of clothes they can wear! Who hoo! All I have to do is cook dinner! Hey, there's frozen pizza! They can just have that!!!" So I go home, clean up the kitchen a tad, then plop down and do whatever it is I want to do. Lately it has involved watching Law and Order, Law and Order: CI and Law and Order: SVU. SVU is my fave!!! Did you know that they rerun them during the same day?! THAT is how much I watch it. Sad, I know.

I guess it is time to take it up with the pdoc. Sometimes I really think I might be depressed. I sort of have this overall "I don't care if I die" feeling, like who cares if I get hit by a bus sort of thing. But it's not a dark feeling. Just a general....hell, I dunno what. Nothing matters. The bottom line.

So if I felt emotionally flat and nothing mattered to me, that sounds med-related. But I am really not emotionally flat and nothing matters to me. So maybe that is more along the lines of depression. Hmm. Interesting.

The sad thing is I just don't think my pdoc knows what to do with me. Last time I went, I said I was fine and he looked really relieved!

Thanks you guys for helping me try to figure this out. What a conundrum!

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