sonicwhite Posted April 14, 2017 Share Posted April 14, 2017 Ok, I had to move out of state thus making me have to Ct withdrawal of klonopin. I thought I was really losing it. I had two seizures and the ER reinstated my klonopin but weaned me down over a week. I got out of inpatient on Wednesday and I felt good then yesterday but today I woke up and just knew it was going to be a bad day. these symptoms wax and wane so much so that you think your out of the cloud only to be put back into it. It sucks so bad because I'm trying to recover from all of this. Trying to do it without a crutch. Now mind you I believe benzos have there place in medicine but they are so hard to come off of. i thought I had died and I was the son of man and that I created everything. Very delusional I say. So does anyone here have any tips on how to deal with such a change as this? I'm trying to find common ground so I can have assurance that it's really just benzo withdrawal. Yop 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jt07 Posted April 14, 2017 Share Posted April 14, 2017 I can assure you, Sonic, that it is benzo withdrawal mixed together with your illness. Benzo withdrawal takes time. Some people say months. So just be patient with yourself in the meantime and try not to worry too much about it. What was the dose of Klonopin you came off that gave you the seizures? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iceberg Posted April 14, 2017 Share Posted April 14, 2017 It must have been pretty high right? Unless ur really unlucky Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sonicwhite Posted April 14, 2017 Author Share Posted April 14, 2017 3 mg a day Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iceberg Posted April 14, 2017 Share Posted April 14, 2017 And u stopped Ct? That's some willpower 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sonicwhite Posted April 15, 2017 Author Share Posted April 15, 2017 Man, I don't know if I'm saved or doomed. I keep obsessing that I died and I lost the choice to accept Christ. I'm not preaching on here. I actually believe I'm dead and it's all too late. This is a common form of OCD. Pure O. What sticks out that makes me think or doubt it is OCD is the derealization. Where I think I'm in a different dimension. someone please help me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iceberg Posted April 15, 2017 Share Posted April 15, 2017 Like u actually literally believe your dead...or you will be? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sonicwhite Posted April 15, 2017 Author Share Posted April 15, 2017 Sometimes I obsess that I'm dead. It's such a powerful obsession that leaves me almost completely disabled. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iceberg Posted April 15, 2017 Share Posted April 15, 2017 Do you have a pdoc? I'd See them ASAP Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jt07 Posted April 15, 2017 Share Posted April 15, 2017 Yes, Sonic, you need to talk to your psychiatrist. I think it's going to take a lot more than 10 mg of Abilify to help you, and only your pdoc can help. If it helps at all, I will say that you are NOT dead. Dead people don't post on CB or anywhere else. With regard to your religion ... I thought you already chose Christ. Then what is the problem if you were to die (which you aren't). Again, you are not dead. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sonicwhite Posted April 15, 2017 Author Share Posted April 15, 2017 It's a tricky OCD Pure O Obsession. jt you should know about that. Ever since I CT Klonopin I have been obsessing. All klonopin did was numb the problem. I'm Kinda doing my own ERP therapy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jt07 Posted April 15, 2017 Share Posted April 15, 2017 I know it's your illness, Sonic. I never had "pure-O" OCD though. My OCD was always compulsive. The thing that always helps me when I am getting caught up in it is to reality check, and to ask myself how likely is ___________ possible? (fill in the blank) And I answer that question logically and objectively as if I asked a friend and he responded. I'm glad you have some therapy techniques to help you, though I really do think you need a psychiatrist. Why suffer when there is help out there? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sonicwhite Posted April 15, 2017 Author Share Posted April 15, 2017 I have a Pdoc here in TN. She said the best thing is therapy. I'm trying to get on Tenncare so I can see the therapist on a regular basis. I just saw the pdoc on the 13th. She is just a medicine person. I'm willing to work for my health if that's what it takes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jt07 Posted April 15, 2017 Share Posted April 15, 2017 (edited) I'm glad you are taking steps to get regular therapy, and I'm glad you have a pdoc. I'm sorry you had to move because I thought you were doing better back when you posted last. Edited April 15, 2017 by jt07 because English is just too damned hard 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iceberg Posted April 15, 2017 Share Posted April 15, 2017 wait wait...are you on all of those meds in green? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sonicwhite Posted April 15, 2017 Author Share Posted April 15, 2017 I need to change my signature. No I'm on 600 of gabapentin three times a day. Abilify 10mg in the morning. Prozac 80 mg Remeron 45 mg Zyprexa pen 5 mg. Vistaril 25 pro four times a day. Ambien 5 mg at night. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Iceberg Posted April 15, 2017 Share Posted April 15, 2017 ok I had a mini heart attack I cant imagine having a benzo ripped away like that. could you go up on your abilify? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
sonicwhite Posted April 15, 2017 Author Share Posted April 15, 2017 I guess I can....I see why my pdoc that passed away said He's trying to make it easier on me. He was talking about detox but he passed away before I could taper which he would of been more than willing to do that. Dr. Hennessee just kicked the can down the road. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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