Losing_It Posted April 17, 2017 Share Posted April 17, 2017 (edited) A few days ago, a female I've known since we were both teenagers, we were roommates back in the 80's, ripped me off for $200. She's not local to me anymore, I sent the cash Western Union to her and she blocked me on Facebook right after she got it. The money was for us to both share something we enjoy, but she took it all. I don't do well, at all, when females fuck me over. My ex wife destroyed our long term marriage so badly that it left me on disability for mental issues. I have a suicidal history but I'm at the point now where because I think the majority of people suck, that I'm newly fantasizing about my gruesome suicide in front of strangers, in hopes that I will inflict PTSD on them. I figure since most people suck, even though they're strangers, they've probably made some other person's life a living hell, so odds are that I'll likely get blood and gore on some piece of shit who deserves it anyway. Edited April 17, 2017 by Losing_It Typo Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
HisHarleQuinn Posted April 17, 2017 Share Posted April 17, 2017 Suicide isn't the way to go, ever. You might wanna call your doctor or a suicide hotline. A lot of the boards on here mention where to go for help. My ex best friend, I didn't know her as long. I'm only 20 and we met when I was like 18? Idk. She stole half my things, cleaned out my wallet and a bunch of other shit. My parents never liked her and I vouched for her. I helped pay her deposit for her apartment, I got her graduation gifts, etc. and she felt the need to fuck me over. I almost lost all my clothes and belongings and would've had to start new thanks to her. People suck man, this is why I keep to myself. I stay off facebook, I only get on here, fetlife and my tumblr. That's it. well and pinterest. I stopped messing with people when i realized most are out for themselves and are nothing but drama. Welcome to the society we live in, you have to take the time to find the good gems. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wooster Posted April 17, 2017 Share Posted April 17, 2017 You might, indeed, get some blood and gore on some asshat who deserves it. And it's also likely you'll damage a lot more people who don't deserve it. Killing yourself, while an entertaining fantasy, is akin to that saying "taking poison hoping someone else will die." It's totally understandable that you're feeling betrayed and that this betrayal is touching on all those big traumatic stressors associated with your ex-wife. And it sucks that it's happening now with someone you have such a long history with and had previously presented as trustworthy. Her behavior says more about her than it does about you at this point. How you deal with it, though, says far more about you than the rest of the world. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jt07 Posted April 17, 2017 Share Posted April 17, 2017 Hi, It sucks when someone we think we can depend on betrays our trust. I get that. However, in this case we are talking about $200. Two-hundred dollars is not worth killing yourself over - ever. Money can always be replaced but your life can never be. Please think about that. I also get what it is like to have a marriage fall apart because one person decided to end it. It happened to me and I ended up in the mental hospital and on the meds you see me on now. I should be on disability too. I know how bad it hurts. But please don't equate losing $200 to the breakup of your marriage. I hope you are able to get in touch with a therapist to help give you some perspective. You have a right to be angry over the $200. Just don't turn that anger on yourself or other innocent bystanders. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Losing_It Posted July 16, 2017 Author Share Posted July 16, 2017 I'm long over the very temporary urge I had to kill myself in front of others and give them PTSD. If and when it happens, I don't want at the last second to risk seeing an innocent child near me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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