Bimbo Bear Posted April 20, 2017 Share Posted April 20, 2017 (edited) Recently I've been on an important search to find myself a religious place to call home. Ever since leaving my first religion and living as an agnostic for a few years, I now realize how much I need religion in my life, personally. So I've set out on a search, but there's a big problem with all of this. I've noticed this inexplicable rush to get the answers that I need. I have a thousand questions on my mind, I keep bouncing back and forth on what it is that I believe, and I feel like I need to know where I belong RIGHT NOW AT THIS VERY SECOND!!! It's not just with this either. When I'm in class, I have trouble focusing on what's being said, the end of class can't come soon enough, and even though it's easier for me to read (now that I'm on Latuda) I sometimes have trouble motivating myself to settle down and read, simply because doing that would mean I would have to s l o w d o w n. I hate having to slow down. I feel like molasses when I do. Even though I know I ought to, I just hate slowing down to do things like meditate, because it makes the minutes go by so much slower. I am no longer pacing like I used to and my enthusiasm for life isn't as high as it would be if I were hypomanic. But this kind of activity I've been experiencing seems a little too fast and stressful and not okay. So please be honest, do you think these are signs of anxiety or possibly my bipolar acting up? P.S. It could just be from my medication, but I've noticed that I've been more bitchy and moody with others for awhile now too (it's been months). It's getting harder to fake a smile and I notice my thoughts have been becoming more and more condescending (which is not good for someone in a "happy" workplace). Edited April 21, 2017 by Bimbo Bear Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
jacques Posted April 21, 2017 Share Posted April 21, 2017 It's possible that you could be entering a mixed period or dysphoric mania, especially with your moodiness acting up and the fact that your mood isn't really skyrocketing like hypomania would have it. Anxiety, though, is completely likely as well. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
melissaw72 Posted April 21, 2017 Share Posted April 21, 2017 I agree with @jacques, it does sound like a mixed episode. But it also sounds like some hypomania also. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mcjimjam Posted April 21, 2017 Share Posted April 21, 2017 (edited) I have had times where I was really stressed or overstimulated from being very busy/lack of sleep that seem similar to what you describe but it also sounds like hypo symptoms. I would call your doctor and let them judge. A med change might be in order. Edited April 21, 2017 by mcjimjam 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Gearhead Posted April 21, 2017 Share Posted April 21, 2017 A mixed episode or mild hypomania can easily have anxiety as a symptom. Yay! You can have both at once! You need to contact your pdoc for a med tweak. I hope this doesn't get any worse, and you feel better soon. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bimbo Bear Posted April 22, 2017 Author Share Posted April 22, 2017 Gross. After some deep analysis of myself, I think I can safely say that this is an extended mixed episode with anxiety being an unfortunate symptom. That's fabulous. I just hope this doesn't mean I have to cancel what I'm currently on and try another med. I'd hate to go through withdrawals after coming so far with this medication I'm on. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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