Danica Posted February 8, 2006 Share Posted February 8, 2006 Even though I'm getting treatment for my depression, I've found that some things have still stuck around. They may be less than they were before, but they're still there...and it's still pissing me off. Especially one of them. I have a tendancy to blame myself for *EVERYTHING*. I don't mean abstract events...I just mean like.... well if I'm talking with a person and they're obviously distracted or not in a good mood... or some such, I automatically think that I'm responsible, that there is something wrong with me, and this drives me into a really bad spiral of sadness and such. It is really hard for me to accept that there are outside events, unrelated circumstances, that affect other people's moods/behavior/interactions. It is so much easier to blame myself than to think that something else is affecting things. I have this feeling that if I am not blaming myself, I am deluding myself. Sigh. I've often said that even if I am across the world from someone else, had no interaction for a while, and there dog died - that I would still feel responsible if they were in a bad mood - because obviously it's my fault! Sad part is, I say it as a joke....but it's not that far from the truth. I can't really seperate myself from this. I just want to know if any of ya'll are dealing with something like this too....and.....how do you handle it? How do you set yourself straight? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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