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Anyone else experience this? It's like I have no automatic thoughts at all, nothing "driving" me - complete loss of automatic inner monologue. I feel totally flat and emotionless - except for negative emotions and fear because of this state. Has anyone recovered from this?

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4 hours ago, WinterRosie said:

In my experience this is a symptom of depression, rather than a symptom of dissociation. So for me, treat the depression and it goes away.

May I ask how this occurred with you? I was definitely on a seemingly downward spiral of depression (unless it was damage from ECT) prior to my mind going blank, but when my mind did go blank/silent, there was a trigger - it wasn't gradual. One morning I experienced strong negative thoughts and emotions (mostly about myself) and suddenly my mind just went blank/silent. Since then I've felt totally disconnected from myself and others - like I have no self, just a constant "silence" in my brain - like nothing stimulates me.

Did you also have a trigger to your blank mind or was it a gradual thing? Also, may I ask how you recovered from it, and whether you regained your sense of self and internal monologue back?

 

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That can happen the way that you describe. And in others that I've read about, it's depression for them as well. The trigger for me was that I was suicidal. I've recovered in that I have a sense of self and I can hear myself think again. But I get scared when I suspect that I might be getting depressed again.

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17 minutes ago, WinterRosie said:

That can happen the way that you describe. And in others that I've read about, it's depression for them as well. The trigger for me was that I was suicidal. I've recovered in that I have a sense of self and I can hear myself think again. But I get scared when I suspect that I might be getting depressed again.

Thanks for your input, Rosie. I'm going to discuss this with my pdoc - my previous one also thinks it's part of my depression, while my current one thinks I have negative symptoms (she thinks i'm schizoaffective). My previous one thinks it's merely depression, however, with perhaps depersonalization.

 

Exactly as you mention btw, it's like I can't "hear" myself think - on point. May I ask how you recovered your sense of self and "hearing" your thoughts again? My current pdoc prescribed me Vraylar, but I'm not sure if that would do anything for depression or/and blank mind.

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