Angerr Posted August 7, 2017 Share Posted August 7, 2017 Ive been having suicidal thoughts for the past 3 weeks i think, they come and go something they're strong and other times is just me wishing i was dead. I feel like i wouldnt kill myself but i want to cause serious harm, i can tell i feel a little unsafe, i have told my pdoc and my psychologist but they seem to not pay enough attention to it. I feel like i cant keep up with my life too much work and too much stress plus i have issues believing im sick, one psychiatrist (a different one, not the one i see all the time) denied all my symptoms once and told me i had bpd when i really dont i cheked all the symptoms and the only one i have is self harm and my regular pdoc says im SZA and that i dont have bpd but that experience makes it even harder for me to believe im ill. I stop my medication and then i take it again im not sure what to do with my life and nothing seems to help i feel like im not sick enough like i dont want to die enough but i dont want to live either, its getting really hard to keep on going. I cant go to hospital here is extremely hard to get admitted or at least thats what i think all i know is that i cant keep up with my life and people dont take me seriously i feel like i have to attempt suicide to prove myself im really suffering i already did it once 4 years ago but nothing happened it wasnt bad enough. Im in a really dark place and its frustrating. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mellifluous Posted August 21, 2017 Share Posted August 21, 2017 just wanted to post to say that i read this and i'm sorry you're struggling with such a rough time. please don't hurt yourself. things can go wrong. maybe print out this post and show to your psychiatrist? so s/he can take you more seriously? best to you, xx 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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