Grateful for my freedom

[Devezencuando]

HI There-

   Yeah I am lucky and grateful to have my freedom this morning.  I'm lucky to be with my children and feel healthy enough to do it.  I'm lucky to have my job and be able to work.  Mania - even hypo-mania - is not a fun thing that you want to play around with.  It's fine when there's creativity and you feel sexual and on top of the world... but when you suddenly realize you're way too warm all over, like you're drunk and it's 9pm and you're too high to sleep...  it's time to call the psychiatrist or take some medications.  And I was feeling really bad when I couldn't get the medication at the pharmacy, realizing how unlucky I am to have this - the guy behind me chatting with his family on the phone, going about his life, daughter and mother in front just doing a quick dinner salad run... no worries for them of being out of control from something biologically wrong with them.  No disease lurking in the dark to take away their sanity and everyone and everything they love.  So I'm grateful to be free this morning, not have been handcuffed anytime recently by some a-hole cop who wants to punish me for a biological illness like it's the middle ages.  Yeah fun times.  So I'm grateful for anti-psychotics this morning because I was able to sleep last night at least enough to keep the psychosis at bay.  I did not turn into agitation- I was a happy crazy person this time.  And probably nobody around me - I asked - had any idea what was going on, but I knew.  I used to look up drugs on crazymeds website and it was very entertaining and comforting to see how brutally honest the author of that website was.  The stories were often amusing too - it's good to laugh at the craziness sometimes, although sometimes it's tragic.  It had been a while since I had this problem so it's particularly alarming.  Not sure if starting Prempro (hormone drug for menopause- I'm not that old, it's early menopause) caused this.  Thanks.

   So thanks for this board to post on 

[Gearhead]

Welcome, Devezencuando. I loved CrazyMeds, too. The wiki pages still exist, though the forum is gone.

We're glad to have you, and I'm glad your mania is keeping in check. Please do PM me or any of the other mods if you have questions about the site.

Gearhead