Thank you site for existing

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I've been lurking around for a couple of months, didn't have the nerve to say anything,  But must give my heartfelt thanks for this place being here.

I say quietly bonkers because I don't feel comfortable talking about my illnesses with anyone around me.  But they can get very confusing and frustrating and it's such a relief to see others in the same place, looking for and sharing answers.

I came here because I'd had an episode where I thought I had demons stalking me.  After being utterly terrified for about a week, it occurred to me that the problem could have been in my head, particularly because I was not sleeping very much and buzzing like I was on about 5 pots of coffee all the time.  I couldn't tell anyone what I was experiencing, so I started nosing around places like this.  I felt less scared when I read about others who saw or heard frightening things.  Then I decided to re-start my seroquel to see if it helped and voila!  Demons went away.  But I am also terrified of the weight gain associated with AAP's so I came here to see how others dealt with the side effects.  And I've been coming back for all my questions about side effects and symptoms ever since!  And I have never failed to find someone who is struggling with the same thing, and I can read all the responses for suggestions.  It's been such a comfort.  Now I've been depressed for about a month and again, I fear if I tell anyone they'll think I'm just feeling sorry for myself.  So this is the only place I can say something.  I'm even afraid of telling the pdoc because I am afraid she'll think I'm always making up symptoms because I seem to have a new problem every few months (usually at season changes now that I think about it).  I'm glad I can come here and read about other people that have the same experiences so I don't feel so alone in all of this.  

[jt07]

Hi and welcome, quietly bonkers. I'm glad that we have been of help to you, and I'm really glad that you decided to join us. It sounds like you've been going through a lot, and I'm glad that you are able to see that you are not alone. I like the fact that I don't have to be shy here because we all understand what suffering with MI is.

If you have any questions about the site, feel free to PM me or any other staff member. I look forward to seeing you posting on the boards! Welcome again!