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Ugh. I hate this.

I just slipped up after being twelve days clean. 

I noticed I always go a period of time being clean then slip up. This has been happening for months now. 

For example, I would be two weeks clean then slip up. After that, I would go like a week and a half clean and then slip up.

I'm so sick of this cycle. 

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Do you know what it is that causes you to slip up?

A slip is a lesson that tells you where your vulnerabilities lie. For instance, if I know that talking to someone in particular causes me to SI, then I can put in place either restrictions on when/how I talk to them, or I can make sure to plan self-care before and after talking to them.

 

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Changing behavior is never a straight line from point A to point B.

Relapses are a normal part of the recovery process. As @WinterRosie it can be helpful to think of a slip not so much as a failure but an opportunity to understand where your coping skills got overwhelmed by triggers and situations so you can make your coping skills more robust in those places.

How are you doing now?

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same here, 63 days clean and boom another therapist kicks me out and I'm back at square one :(

 

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What a bummer, @yoks

I'm sorry to hear that your coping skills got overwhelmed by losing a therapy relationship.

I know it feels like you're back at square one, but you aren't really. You still have those 63 days of not self harming. Those can't ever be taken away from you.

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