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Is this anxiety? Trying to define the constant negativity.

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I’ve been dealing with major depressive disorder and anxiety for several years now. I’ve read a lot of books on psychology and neurology. But I’ve only recently started seeing a psychiatrist. I was getting prescriptions from general physicians. Currently I’m on Wellbutrin and it works great for my depression but my anxiety still shows up. I told my doctor that it feels like an under-lying current. The anxiety is constant but I keep it at bay. He prescribed me Seroquel 25mg. Today is my second day on it. I don’t think I really knew how to describe my anxiety before today because today my brain feels silent. It’s like before there was a constant negative voice, my own voice - I guess, that would always repeat any negative thought I ever had. All my doubts were vocalized by this voice. I’ve never described it as a voice before because I always associated it with just thoughts. But today those thoughts are not there. I’m calm and that’s weird. So my question is, is it really anxiety? 

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I have very negative thoughts from anxiety/depression. I don't know that I'd call it a voice. It is more of an inner dialog that is ongoing in my mind.

I tend to think of it in terms of the ego. I read the Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle some years ago. If I remember correctly, he talks about you have the self and the ego. Most people think that their ego as themselves. It is pretty deep stuff.

Glad you're getting some relief. I took Seroquel a long time ago.

I would have to ask does this voice feel like you or something/someone else?

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Anxiety and depression are two sides of the same coin. Depression is often said to be fearing the past while anxiety is fearing the future. I don't know how real this division really is. Like anyone who suffers from depression doesn't feel some anxiety. Oh yes, my past was awful, but I'm optimistic about the future, because why wouldn't I be, given how life has been so terrible up until now? Yep! Somewhere over the rainbow, there's a pile of shit waiting for you. Sorry, I'm being negative, and I noticed while back when I was typing this that this is another old thread. Sorry for being negative, it's all going to work out fine.

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