deeschmee Posted April 17, 2018 Share Posted April 17, 2018 And when I do ask for help I get silence. No reply On two separate occasions I told two separate guys (both of whom I had been intimate with) that I really could use a friend. I was in a terrible place mentally and was reaching out as suggested by mental health providers. I received no response whatsoever. Dead silence. People really do suck and you better damn well believe I won't ask again. Fuck them 1 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
coraline Posted April 17, 2018 Share Posted April 17, 2018 I've lost all my friends due to my mental illness..or that's what I think.. I've been mentally messed with..triggered and told to fuck off.. My support system is gone..I have here..which is all I trust now.. I don't trust making relationships anymore.. I'm sorry people are treating you so badly.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
deeschmee Posted April 17, 2018 Author Share Posted April 17, 2018 One can never underestimate the helpfulness of this site honestly I have to keep reminding myself of that Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Wonderful.Cheese Posted April 17, 2018 Share Posted April 17, 2018 (edited) 3 minutes ago, Wonderful.Cheese said: @deeschmee Oops not sure what I did. I was trying to tag you and it quoted my post? Sorry about that!!!!! Weird!!!! Yes, Fuck them. I'm sorry you were treated that way @deeschmee I lost all my friends too. After my long hospitalization at a state hospital they just treated me very differently, and then they just stopped talking to me altogether! (including the woman who was the maid of honor at my wedding, whom I considered to be one of my closest and best friends). In fact none of my bridesmaids speak to me anymore. But I guess I don't really blame them. I am a totally different person. But it would have been decent of them to at least give me a chance to show them I'm not some alien and that I'm capable of being a good friend at least some of the time when I'm doing better. It just kills me because I used to have a lot of friends and was very extroverted and everyone liked me (mostly I should say, lol). Now I have zero friends and I'm too paranoid to be around people. Always suspicious and sometimes accusing others of bad things. Always depressed or anxious. Nobody likes me because of how I am. I can hide it for maybe a few hours max maybe on a good day, but the crazy always leaks through. Then I take it out on my husband usually. Yeah. I'm a real winner. Edited April 17, 2018 by Wonderful.Cheese 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
deeschmee Posted April 22, 2018 Author Share Posted April 22, 2018 I wish I could shout to the world. I'd say " Quit staying away from me just because you don't understand or are scared. You can't catch. MI from me" 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mellifluous Posted April 27, 2018 Share Posted April 27, 2018 i'm sorry those people let you down. i'm glad you feel supported here. i hope you're feeling better soon. xx to the topic of losing friends...i've lost quite a few, but what were they really? there's nothing like a psychotic break to separate the wheat from the chaff. in every arena of life, people will self select. let them. i can't meet their needs. they need someone to be not me. so...yeah. it sucks to feel isolated and alone, though. when i've been psychotic i don't care so much, but when i'm stable it does come into focus that that's my situation. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
deeschmee Posted May 15, 2018 Author Share Posted May 15, 2018 Does anyone ever feel as though they can't select quality people to spend time with? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mellifluous Posted May 15, 2018 Share Posted May 15, 2018 1 hour ago, deeschmee said: Does anyone ever feel as though they can't select quality people to spend time with? yes and no... i feel that way when i'm lonely, but then when i have too many people in my life i can't juggle them all. it's really a double edged sword for me. on the one hand i want more interaction, but on the other, i can't handle much more. xx 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
deeschmee Posted May 15, 2018 Author Share Posted May 15, 2018 55 minutes ago, mellifluous said: yes and no... i feel that way when i'm lonely, but then when i have too many people in my life i can't juggle them all. it's really a double edged sword for me. on the one hand i want more interaction, but on the other, i can't handle much more. xx That is exactly word for word how I feel except when I do choose people to hang out with they're highly dysfunctional or I'm highly critical I can't determine. But I definitely choose severely dysfunctional people much of the time to hang with 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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