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Feeling lonely and isolated, even around friends and family?

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I had no idea where to post this, so I posted it here; mods, please move it as you see fit.

Does anyone else experience this? I feel this tugging sensation in my chest, this emptiness and loneliness, all the time. It's a physical sensation, very tangible... It sometimes makes me physically ill. I have to lay in bed for hours at times to recuperate from really bad "episodes" of it. I even feel it, at times, even when I'm around my very best of best of friends, who are actually closer than brothers to me. They are the only ones who can actually somewhat fill that void in my chest, but not always. 

I feel isolated and cut off in gatherings of groups of friends or family gatherings, like I'm on the outside looking in. I don't talk much because I feel almost like I'm not part of the group, even with aforementioned close friends there. It's so strange. I have occasionally experienced depersonalization in such situations, which is extremely uncomfortable and alarming, and has triggered panic attacks before, but that's not the reason for the post.

My reason for this post is to ask if anyone else experiences this same constant tugging sensation in the chest, that constant reminder that "you're alone," the feeling of being alone, and this sort of feeling that "you'll always be alone in this world no matter what," even if you have the best friends in the world to accompany you in life...

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Yes. I get this too. Always sort of around to varying degrees. When I’m ok and medicated it is around but not in my face. Otherwise, it is very much in my face.

i find that it tracks with my mood, either going down towards a depressive episode or a bout of irritability/anger/despair, for no reason at all. I don’t get hypomanic or manic so I’m not sure what it would be like in a state like that.

with that said I have zero useful advice for you, unfortunately. 

Stay strong, bro.

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I feel very alone and lonely. It's crushing. I have no friends. Sometimes I feel like it could kill me literally that crushing emptiness and lonliness. I'm alone a lot. I hang out with my mom during some of the day but I still don't feel like I'm really a part of anything.

In a group like for instance, I had dinner with my parents and my aunt and uncle and cousin and grandma last night, I felt so alone. My cousin is just starting college. I am jealous and that hurts I should be happy for him. He is lucky. He has his whole life ahead of him and no MI to ruin everything! He is very emotionally healthy. So. I felt so lonley and longed for the ability to finish college and get a good job. But that's not in my future. Everyone was talking around me and I had nothing to say. I don't do anything so I have nothing to report. 

I'll never have friends again either. Too paranoid I guess. I miss friendships. I've learned no one can handle the crazy that is me. 

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Yes! I mostly feel it when Husband does something hurtful to me directly, or when I’m feeling left out of a group, (whether it’s from my shyness or not), when I hear about my friends and family going places and I’ve nowhere to go, and when I’m at home alone by myself. 

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Every waking moment. I have literally no one. It kills and also makes me nauseous and pain in my heart. 

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I've been doing better lately, but despite this, I still feel lonely around my friends and family, albeit not as bad as it was before some of the time. Sometimes I feel really with the group, other times I feel all detached and separated, like I don't feel like part of the company around me. I guess this is something I'm just going to have to live with and deal with all my life, something that's part of my illness.

I'm sorry for everyone else in this thread who has responded who feels the same way. It's awful.

I hope we can all get relief from this symptom.

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