chinacat Posted March 9, 2006 Share Posted March 9, 2006 I am sure this has happened to someone--I am now dealing with a terrible back problem which will probably require back surgery, and has made it almost impossible for me to walk, or sit or sleep (car wreck 1999--then it got worse. Details upon request) The problem is--this has tapped into what aprently is my worst fear in the entire world, being incapacitated, or losing the use of one or both of my legs, permanently. I am so scared of back surgery, I literally cannot discuss it, and every night, I come home from work and cry for hours, terrified to the bone about this. The only thing that can calm me down is a Klonopin, and a muscle relaxer my ortho gave me until we decide about the surgery. But it is wrecking the nice calm thingy I had going--and I really don't know how to handle it except medicate myself into oblivion. Any auggestions? Are you terrified of getting pneumonia, or breaking an arm, or something else totally NOT a big deal, but puts you into a complete spiral of anxiety, fear, depression, more anxiety, etc. etc? Love, china the potential cripple-I know, I know, not likely but logic doesn't play much of a part in this-- Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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