confused Posted October 28, 2018 Share Posted October 28, 2018 I have dp/dr and possibly ddnos, but the more i keep my anxiety under control, the less i dissociate. I have been working on stress reduction and other things and have not dealt with the dissociative disorders, but they have not been troubling me. i went to a dbsa, mood disorder support group. the name of the Dr i saw in 2014 about dissociation came up. For some reasn, thinkng back has brought back my confusion, questions, concerns. i tried to find my report from him, but the file is gone and i can't find my copy. I know my tdoc has something, i dont know if i gave her the full report. i was thinkng of going out of network to see him, but i am going to talk to my tdoc about that. She is open minded and may be able to help me in different ways than she has been. I want someone to validate that i hurt. That sometimes life sucks. That it isnt all my fault. anyways, i started reading on dssociative disorders and trauma and am shaking. It has me upset but i cant explain. the thing is, i was at my worst when my children were small. 3 and 6 or so. I was regressing, felt the prescence of other parts, dissociated often. But it has not been an issue for a long time. i am freaking out and i dont know where to turn. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
paintedsky Posted October 28, 2018 Share Posted October 28, 2018 It's a good plan to talk with your doctors and go to groups. Sometimes there's not much else you can do when you are having symptoms but take the meds and rest. Let the storm pass. How are you fairing? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~nestling~ Posted October 28, 2018 Share Posted October 28, 2018 I understand the shakiness from reading about things. Take gentle care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted October 28, 2018 Author Share Posted October 28, 2018 I finally was able to go to sleep and i am much better this morning. Thank you 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~nestling~ Posted October 28, 2018 Share Posted October 28, 2018 3 minutes ago, confused said: I finally was able to go to sleep and i am much better this morning. Thank you That's good to hear. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted October 28, 2018 Share Posted October 28, 2018 I'm glad you're feeling better Sometimes reading about dissociation/trauma can really activate things inside - I know it does for me. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted October 28, 2018 Author Share Posted October 28, 2018 I am getting overwhelmed again. Not sure where to turn. Could i text tdoc? It is a weekend. I feel like no one will understand Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted October 28, 2018 Share Posted October 28, 2018 Do you know what it is that’s overwhelming? Inside things? Outside things? I guess different tdocs have different boundaries about weekends - depends on yours I guess. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted October 28, 2018 Author Share Posted October 28, 2018 Thanks tryp. It is inside and not feeling like I have anywhere to go. I did text her. I feel like she can get back to me Mon if I am breaking a boundary. I told her i am safe, just overwhelmed. I feel like everyone says it is all a delusion and maybe it is, I don't know. I don't want to confuse anyone that DID is somehow related to psychosis. I mean the psychologist that did some testing said ddnos with fragments, but that was going off what I told him. No one has ever noticed anything from the outside. I don't have amnesia. I was thinking of going out of network to see him for therapy, but I don't know if that is a good idea so I am going to talk to my tdoc. i am stirred up. Things on the outside are fine Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted October 29, 2018 Share Posted October 29, 2018 Inside problems are really hard - I don't know what yours are like, but I have my own and it feels very...fragmenting, and difficult to talk about/get support around/sort through. I don't have amnesia either but I definitely have DDNOS. I go through a lot of self-doubting about it - I don't know. It's all very confusing, especially when psychosis gets involved. I'm glad you texted your therapist Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted October 29, 2018 Author Share Posted October 29, 2018 She texted back. I will talk with her tomorrow. I hope she can squeeze me in for an appt soon i feel more anxiety than anything else and as if everything is urgent. i have trouble knowing how i feel. I used to feel numb a lot. I hate getting emotional and, i dont feel like i belong anywhere thanks for talking with me Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted October 29, 2018 Share Posted October 29, 2018 I’m glad that you get to talk to her - and I hope it helps. I find sometimes it’s helpful to take the time to try to tease out how I feel - but it is hard. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted October 29, 2018 Author Share Posted October 29, 2018 I spoke with tdoc this morning. She Reminded me of some coping skills and made an appt for this afternoon. She thinks i will be distracted at work. I hope so. she did reassure me that psychotic and trauma symptoms can present in the same person and can overlap. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted October 29, 2018 Share Posted October 29, 2018 That is a useful reassurance - they for sure can. Trauma is actually highly associated with psychosis. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
confused Posted October 30, 2018 Author Share Posted October 30, 2018 Thanks, she ended up squeezing me in today. I feel better but drained Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
tryp Posted October 30, 2018 Share Posted October 30, 2018 Thank goodness Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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