Relapse after a year

[lightriso]

I relapsed today. After over a year of being clean.

I’m super stressed out about a test and my mind immediately went to self harm. So I did it. 

I’m sad.

[echolocation]

hey, it's gonna be okay. relapse isn't the end of the road, nor a start of a brand new one. it's just a bump. that year you spent clean hasn't gone to waste at all. now, you have an entire year where you only harmed once. that's very, very impressive. don't start your count over; relapse isn't a failure.

i had a class this evening that really upset me, for some reason. i really, really want to harm. i'm sitting with it. it's hard, and it sucks. if i wasn't in school i don't think i'd have the problem with SH that i do.

sending solidarity. you're not alone, man.