GroovyGwen Posted March 15, 2006 Share Posted March 15, 2006 For the past week and a half I have been an utter JOY to be around. I want to yell at people for the smallest thing and am enjoying pissing people off. I feel like it is almost impossible to smile, except when I am laughing maniacally at something that is going through my head. I have no energy. I've been having thoughts of suicide for the first time in a few months. And I am crying more that usual. What the fuck. I feel like I am in that crazy/depressed/psycho period that can accompany pms, but I am done with that as of last Thursday. I first attributed my mood to pms, but now I am just going mad. I have an appointment with my pdoc today, so I'll see what he says, but I also wanted the boards opinon of what the fuck is happening. My meds have been in a good place before this, I went up to 225 on lamictal (my favorite micty) about 2 months ago, but could it have pooped out again? Dammit. Other things it could be: I am sick of being overweight but I joined WW to do something about it and should be happy now that I am on the right track. I attempted meeting someone online who I liked, but who turned out being an ass and making me cry. I could just be sick of my fucking existence which consists of work, lying on couch in my rancid apartment, work, lying on couch in my rancid apartment, rinse and repeat. I have been drinking coffee and have reached the point that it doesn't affect me, and may be making me tired. I have IBS and this neck tension thing and have been having dreams of beating the crap out of family members so there is stress roaming around in my subconscious. I'm not thrilled with my tdoc and don't feel like I am getting enough out of her. My family seems to think I am healed. OK so I guess my question is "Is this a med issue or a therapy issue?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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