devon00 Posted March 19, 2006 Share Posted March 19, 2006 I have been in therapy for the last 13 years. THIRTEEN YEARS! I've tried all sorts of medications...Celexa, Lexapro, Wellbutrin, Effexor, Paxil, Prozac, Trazadone, Risperdal, Ritalin. There are even more that I can't remember. And yet I'm still depressed. None of the medications have really worked consistently or effectively. Many didn't work at all, while also having the joyous side effects of killing my libido (GREAT for relationships ) and making me gain weight (ditto). Is it really my lot in life to always feel depressed and down and down on myself? The irony about depression is that no matter what good things happen in my life, I don't get much enjoyment out of them. I'm so lucky in so many ways...I have excellent health, I got into graduate school (a goal of mine for years but something that I was too scared to pursue), I live independently, have dated a lot...and none of this makes me feel the least bit of pleasure What's also ironic is that if I could just get this damn depression to ease up, I could probably bring so many more positive things in my life. Like, maybe I'd have the energy and wherewithall to join a sports team or pursue some of the activities that I've always wanted to. Or...maybe I'd meet Mr. Right rather than scaring away all of the guys I date with my insecure feelings. But I always feel so tired and discouraged.. This makes it very hard for me to try new things. No matter what I do, a dark cloud always seems to descend upon me, especially when I have free time on my hands. Are there some people with dysthymia (like I have) who just aren't helped by medication? Exercise helps a bit, but even that only does so much. Sorry if this post lacks focus...I just needed to vent. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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