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I haven't self injured in around 3 years. Traditionally, I would cut myself. In the event that someone took my tool or I didn't have it for whatever reason, I would take to burning.

But things in my life have changed and I cannot risk anyone finding visable scars or burns. But I'm getting SI urges from hell. 

To try and get my mind off it, I started exercising. But after the first few days, I over did it by accident and was sore. Like really sore. 

Now, Im finding that when the urge hits, I end up seriously overworking myself to the point I nearly pass out And/or vomit.

 

The only reason I am being as descriptive as I am, Idk if this is even really a form of SI? Or just a really good alternative? I've never heard of anyone else hurting themself this way before, so I'm kinda unsure. I guess on the plus side, I've lost a few lbs past 6 weeks haha

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I have heard of Over exercise being a form of (maladaptive) coping...it makes sense, it’s cathartic and can lead to endorphin release like other methods of SI

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9 hours ago, Umm_Me? said:

I haven't self injured in around 3 years. Traditionally, I would cut myself. In the event that someone took my tool or I didn't have it for whatever reason, I would take to burning.

But things in my life have changed and I cannot risk anyone finding visable scars or burns. But I'm getting SI urges from hell. 

To try and get my mind off it, I started exercising. But after the first few days, I over did it by accident and was sore. Like really sore. 

Now, Im finding that when the urge hits, I end up seriously overworking myself to the point I nearly pass out And/or vomit.

 

The only reason I am being as descriptive as I am, Idk if this is even really a form of SI? Or just a really good alternative? I've never heard of anyone else hurting themself this way before, so I'm kinda unsure. I guess on the plus side, I've lost a few lbs past 6 weeks haha

I don’t know...when I first started walking my dog, I was sore just because it’d been awhile since I exercised.

Did you do it for the purpose of hurting yourself? I guess that’s key. 

Getting into exercise in lieu of self-harm actually sounds like a very healthy substitute that even normies do to relieve, release stress, anger, whatever. 

I don’t think it’s something to obsess about honestly...I’d be proud that you found a much healthier alternative. 

Again, I’d ask yourself the purpose behind it. Self-harm, or a release of the pain, and aiming for the endorphins...which is completely normal...it’s a known mood booster and the healthiest way to do it. 

Just my 2 pennies. 

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@DammitJanetI guess the thing that has gotten me wondering is the extent I'm pushing myself and knowing what the end result will be be.

Maybe your right and I'm just putting too much thought into it.

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I mean, it sounds like it is to me? And if things like looking at your ex/abuser's social media can count as (emotional) self harm, I don't see why exercise wouldn't count as SI.

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On ‎6‎/‎15‎/‎2019 at 12:51 AM, Iceberg said:

I have heard of Over exercise being a form of (maladaptive) coping...it makes sense, it’s cathartic and can lead to endorphin release like other methods of SI

hehe..I over exercised and overate and totally screwed up my bodys chemistry...ended up with insomnia, constipation, gerd, ibs, and chronic tension/spasms

 

everything in moderation.

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