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So I don’t know how to come out and say this ...... but life has been driving me slowly even more mad and I’ve been looking into killing my self using vet medicine ......... but giving my self a plan and a date gives me  peace I don’t know  

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18 minutes ago, sweetlysinister said:

So I don’t know how to come out and say this ...... but life has been driving me slowly even more mad and I’ve been looking into killing my self using vet medicine ......... but giving my self a plan and a date gives me  peace I don’t know  

Do you have a care team you can reach out to? Therapist? Psychiatrist?

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i get how having an exit brings comfort. but i encourage you to keep moving the date. you can always kill yourself tomorrow, but not today. or, at the very least, let your pdoc/tdoc/whoever is on your side know that you have a plan and a date. i don't know what meds you've tried, but there are always more options. always.

this is not the end of your rope. this is not where things end. you're brave for coming out and saying this. i hope you can find some relief soon.

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3 hours ago, Unstrung Harp said:

Do you have a care team you can reach out to? Therapist? Psychiatrist?

I do but I don’t think it would do much good support is great and all but it doesn’t make me not want to kill my self 

 

 

1 hour ago, echolocation said:

i get how having an exit brings comfort. but i encourage you to keep moving the date. you can always kill yourself tomorrow, but not today. or, at the very least, let your pdoc/tdoc/whoever is on your side know that you have a plan and a date. i don't know what meds you've tried, but there are always more options. always.

this is not the end of your rope. this is not where things end. you're brave for coming out and saying this. i hope you can find some relief soon.

I’ve been on multi antidepressants and a couple mood stabilizers which is all on my profile I’ve just been having a shit hand at life I don’t know really why I feel like this more so these last couple months I think it’s just stress I feel like there is nothing good in my life anymore and not a lot of things bring me joy 

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I can totally relate to the strange human thing where some of us keep suicide on the back burner and find that comforting.. i can't imagine a dog or a cat using their own mortality or impending death as a comfort... I wonder is there anything that can give you that sense of peace that is less dangerous though?


Even slightly less dangerous? Like making your plan more complicated with lots of chances to change your mind? If your plan is easy to implement then one bad day comes along and you are dead :( that's a high high price to pay for the modicum of peace it provides, it seems like freedom but it's not freedom to make a huge decision under duress

I hope you can work with your care team to find something safe to give you peace. In the meantime you know we're all here
 

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