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On 1/20/2020 at 5:46 AM, Blahblah said:

Oh God - I know that book well. My first pdoc recommended it. I hate CBT also. I keep trying to take action, because I keep feeling like it's my damn fault or plain laziness. No one ever takes anhedonia seriously and I'm constantly questioning whether I have some sort of TRD or if I'm just f&cking lazy, or my brain is just destroyed and royally screwed (to the point of no return) after 2 decades of powerful psych meds.

That's me right there. My brain is irretrievably busted. By which means, I do not know but ultimately it doesn't matter - the fact is is that it's fooked.

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I moved my betta fish back to their original, larger tanks and can tell they feel much better rather than when they were in the 10 gallon tanks.

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I got a long-overdue haircut and color.

ETA: I was able to complete some revising action items this evening (after three cups of tea and two cups of coffee, which is screwy).

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On 1/16/2020 at 8:34 PM, Unstrung Harp said:

I was really flummoxed a few months ago at a Mexican restaurant to hear a swing version of Walk on the Wild Side.

Today I drove my kids to school, did a bunch of meditating, went to a medical appointment, and picked up my son.

 

On 1/16/2020 at 7:50 PM, Gearhead said:

Good idea for a thread.

Today I went out to lunch with my husband. We had Indian food, which is my favorite international cuisine. While we were there, I realized that the ambient music was a sitar player covering such classics as “Desparado” and CCR’s “Who’ll Stop the Rain?” It was a moment of transcendent surrealism. I was entranced. 

I was at the Olive Garden for a late lunch this week (please no judgement regarding my choice of restaurant) and in the midst of all this Frank Sinatra-y type background music with mostly typical Sinatra songs, I suddenly realize I'm listening to a cover of "Wonderwall" sung totally Frank Sinatra style. So that was weird.

But nothing tops the Chinese restaurant we used to go to that played the "Chariots of Fire" theme song on repeat pretty much every time we were there. The first time, it crept up on us slowly since it was background music, but once we realized it was there, it was unmistakable and could not be ignored. Over and over again with the crescendo-ing. Climax after climax. (Not a good thing in this case.)

Oh well, the food at that Chinese place eventually went downhill anyway. But yeah, forget waterboarding. Try "Chariots of Fire" on repeat.

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Walked my dog, browsed forums, listened to music and played video games.

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I thought about making fried eggs. This sounds incredibly lame, but it took a dazzling amount of mental energy. Because toast, too? In the end I made instant potatoes.

I was up way too late.

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