GrannyG81 Posted March 18, 2020 Share Posted March 18, 2020 Hi folks, I find that when i'm hitting a depression phase i go through the day just finding ways to pass time as quickly as i can, looking forward to evening/night time knowing that i will be able to get some sleep and temporary relief from the depression..It becomes a mundane routine of waking up and just going through the same routine of going into town,Gambling away money in the book makers and just walking around and around passing away time and waiting for nightime to come..i'd say nightime is probably the only thing i look forward to in the day knowing i'll get atleast "some" relief during sleep...Then i wake up and realise i have to do the same thing over again..I've tried to sleep through the day but i cant do it...My brains far to active to let it happen....Anyone else have similar?? Jamie 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
CrazyRedhead Posted March 18, 2020 Share Posted March 18, 2020 (edited) @GrannyG81, Do you have any hobbies you enjoy doing, like maybe reading a book, arts and crafts, watching tv, listening to music?.....Also, possibly exercising, like walking, riding a bicycle, jogging, going to the gym? Maybe call up a friend or relative, and talk, or get together for lunch?.....These are just a few suggestions....You could make your own list of activities to do during the day, and hopefully help your depression...... Edited March 18, 2020 by CrazyRedhead Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GrannyG81 Posted March 18, 2020 Author Share Posted March 18, 2020 Hows it Going Redhead, I find that when i'm slipping into depression i lose interest in things in general..I was going to the gym up untill about 4 weeks ago...I did try go when i first felt myself getting depressed and i didnt enjoy it...Infact im sure i left after 10 minutes..I develop a "Whats the point attitude"..Life seems to lose its colour and i find myself just not caring anymore....I find that things like going to the gym,Walking etc for me are what i call "wellness tools" ..They work for me when i'm well and functional...When i'm depressed i'm just not interested...I think a pharmalogical intervention is what i need...But as you can see from my other post i'm struggling with that..I can feel myself been backed into a corner from my mind now so maybe i'm hopefull that i may just snap and take the tablets in desperation.. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mikl_pls Posted March 19, 2020 Share Posted March 19, 2020 16 hours ago, GrannyG81 said: Hows it Going Redhead, I find that when i'm slipping into depression i lose interest in things in general..I was going to the gym up untill about 4 weeks ago...I did try go when i first felt myself getting depressed and i didnt enjoy it...Infact im sure i left after 10 minutes..I develop a "Whats the point attitude"..Life seems to lose its colour and i find myself just not caring anymore....I find that things like going to the gym,Walking etc for me are what i call "wellness tools" ..They work for me when i'm well and functional...When i'm depressed i'm just not interested...I think a pharmalogical intervention is what i need...But as you can see from my other post i'm struggling with that..I can feel myself been backed into a corner from my mind now so maybe i'm hopefull that i may just snap and take the tablets in desperation.. Are you currently prescribed anything for depression or have you yet to see a doctor/psychiatrist for your depression? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GrannyG81 Posted March 19, 2020 Author Share Posted March 19, 2020 Hi mate Yes i'm currently on 30mg Mirtazapine...Been on it about 7 years now..I find it doesnt do much but i still get some sedative from it so i havent asked to change it...I've been in and out of mental health services a long time now..My last major bout of depression was about 5-6 years ago and lasted about 8 months..The Psychiatrist back then wanted me to try venlafaxine+ Mirtazapine..I refused..he offered risperidone..I refused..he offered Abilify i got the script but didnt take them..I saw a different Pdoc Who perscribed olanzapine..Again i got the script but didnt take them..I explained my extreme fear of medications and he asked me to consider Depot injection..Zuclopentixol..i refused so ended up getting discharged..During that time i got back to work and things got functional again(even though i always have a baseline level of mental health especially anxiety/depression).I managed to get through...I'm back at mental health services again and Abilify has been offered again..5mg...I have the perscription but am terrified of them..The Pdoc even gave me a script of Valium for any anxiety i get from the abilify...I dont know were this fear comes from..I'm just terrified of taking them..The side effects worry me...Especially the anxiety and stimulating effects...Clomipramine gave me hyper mania and even though it felt good at first it went to a full blown panic...Also i've heard it causes impulsive behaviours like gambling etc...That worries me as i've had addictive behaviour in the past so i'm in a way vunerable to addiction and the idea a medication could cause addiction scares me too.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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