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Hi Folks,

is it possible to have symptoms of depression like..No interest in things,No motivation etc Yet have a "Good" mood...Its a symptom (If thats what it is) I've struggled to explain..I tried to explain it as been "Chemically" Happy yet disatisfied with life..Like today for example..I'm not low in mood..I have hardly any if any anxiety...My mood is some what good yet i'm just not interested in anything...I've lost my interest for the gym..I've lost interest in my job..I'm not cleaning like i normally do..I dont have any ambition or goal setting as i'm just not interested but from a mood perspective i'm reasonably happy..I've had it before in the past were i've felt actually very very good in mood yet empty inside..Like a "is that it" kind of feeling....I once mentioned this to a Pdoc and asked him if this make senses and he said yes..And tapped his head and said "Brain" and Tapped His chest were the heart is and said "Mind" I kind of understand what he means but thats going more into the relm of Spirituality...It is almost like my brain is producing loads of happy chemicals yet my soul is broken..Its a really hard thing to describe..I'm hoping someone can relate to what i'm saying or disect what i'm saying and explain it in a much better way..Is it a part of depression or is it even just part of been human and i'm over  thinking it?? Thanks Jamie

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i understand what you mean -- i'm in a similar place myself, though i also have some anxiety/OCD symptoms acting up right now. i've chalked it up as anhedonia. anhedonia is certainly a symptom of depression, but for me personally, it probably comes from my OCPD. having free time seems to amplify the feeling for me.

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Its a weird symptom to describe ..I've had it in the past were i've felt really good in mood..Infact what you could call "Happy" yet inside i felt completly empty and disatisfied ..Like something is out of whack...I think its because of the way i think..I'm very black/White in how i think so If i'm not depressed like i was 5-6 years ago then i'm not depressed at all...I know depression does not behave like that,its just the way i think about things..I always have a baseline level of anxiety/depression but some days its relativley easy to ignore..Maybe thats the black/white aspect of my thinking style...If i'm not freaking out with depersoanlization etc then i'm not anxious...When again anxiety like depression works along a continuum...Today i feel quite flat..I'm not low in mood and i'm not happy..I'm just kinda flat...Its the motivation thing for me..I've just no motivation for anything...I just have no interest..Like you both say thats the anhedonia...Its just like going along doing the same mundane routine every day trying to make time go as quick as i can so that night time hurries up and i can get some relief via sleep...I've tried to sleep thorugh the day when i get like this but my mind is just too active..I'm the deppressive type who gets agitated/Anxious rather than wanting to sleep all the time...

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That is one of the hardest depression symptoms for me to get rid of.  I'm not sad, but nothing brings me happiness either.  I go through the motions of the day just because I have to.  You said "empty inside" and that's exactly it.  The only good part of the day is bedtime.  Everything else is just a hassle.  I really relate, I have a hard time with this one too.

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3 hours ago, Complicated toad said:

That is one of the hardest depression symptoms for me to get rid of.  I'm not sad, but nothing brings me happiness either.  I go through the motions of the day just because I have to.  You said "empty inside" and that's exactly it.  The only good part of the day is bedtime.  Everything else is just a hassle.  I really relate, I have a hard time with this one too.

 

Yes, I completely understand. Years of my life have been lived in this blank void. And between the last severe depressive episode and the one I'm trying to frantically escape right now, it seems like I never got much higher than you all have described. I've had some glimpses of normal, but they don't seem to last long, and yes, bedtime is definitely the best part of the day. 

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On 6/6/2020 at 1:17 AM, Complicated toad said:

The only good part of the day is bedtime

Yes i've had this for a long time...I think that atleast when i'm asleep i'm getting some relief..Right now i'm in a similar train of thought...I have no ambition/goals..I'm just existing through the day..looking to make time go as quick as possible so that bedtime comes...

 

On 6/6/2020 at 5:01 AM, Catnapper said:

I've had some glimpses of normal, but they don't seem to last long

Same here..In the past like you i've had these glimpses..I remember some years back i was perscribed propranolol and when i took that first tab it was life  changing...It totally squashed my anxiety...I was so calm ..I thought wow is this what its like to be normal..In reality my life didnt get better..I just wasnt feeling extreme anxiety...Sadly i kept taking the propranolol and it had the opposite effect..I started getting depressed..It was like i got a glimmer into a life without anxiety only for it to be stole away...It felt like the universe played a cruel trick on me...

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